I don’t know where to start. I read this quote today and I thought it defined where I always end up being. “Never get too attached to anyone unless they also feel the same way towards you, because one sided expectations can mentally destroy you.” I should completely be focused on something more important like my friends or school, but its all that is on my mind right now. My roommate is the most gorgeous girl and she has guys pouring themselves all over the palms of her hands. I really wish I knew how that felt like. I always end up being the one who falls harder and its pathetic because I’m the girl. I was just recently rejected about a dozen times by the same guy thinking I had a chance every time. He offered to take me out and “try” out of pity and my sorry ass almost took the opportunity because I’m afraid there’s nothing else out there for me. In the end I screwed it up and hes not even my friend anymore. I lost a best friend and now I feel more alone then I have since my ex dumped me. How do I screw something up so bad? I feel like I purposely make sure I don’t end up happy. I really hope no one I know reads this cuuuz I’m just tryna vent and relieve my stress that is “mentally destroying” me.